A New Challenge, New Goals

Today I started a new wellness challenge with my co-workers.  I have been working on my physical wellness and feel I have finally gotten over the plateau.  To give you a quick update I completed the Whole30, lost 14lbs, and gained a whole lot of education on my relationship with food and the importance of why good food choices are life changing. It has been 4 weeks after my experience and 1 stomach virus/complications from said stomach virus that started on my Cabo vacation and I am down another 8lbs. Even though I was ill for the last 2 weeks, I feel great now and ready to start my next 30 days. The good news is that I believe the cycle of losing and gaining has been broken.  As I see the cycle breaking I can feel my emotional wellness start changing too, surprising to me but not unexpected.  They, you know who “they” are, all say that if you exercise and eat healthy/clean all the depression and self doubt will go away.  HA, I have said over the past years. I can’t believe “they” told me so and I am here to share my experience with you.

For the next 30 days, which happen to line up nicely with Thanksgiving, I will be increasing my fitness game and continuing to eat a green, clean, healthy diet.  Largely based on plant proteins with very few grains and animal products.  Due to recent health issues I discovered I am not invincible and neither is my body.  I am grateful for having the willpower to get through my Whole30 because without it I would not have understood that what goes in your body is so very important not only for your physical wellness but for your emotional wellness.

I am so excited that my co-workers and my dear friend, and work-out partner, are coming along for this next 30 day challenge.  I hope I can provide some inspiration for my readers and show you that you are never too old, emotionally scarred, or too deep in the cycle to find your way out.  When you put on those skinny jeans you have been saving for 3 years thinking you will one day get in to them, I am proof you can! I did and you will!

Gratitude 1.3.17

I have not posted for quite some time. After starting a new opportunity I found it hard to get to my passion project of writing.  Now that I have a little more free time, a smidge really, I found it necessary to start writing again. Two weeks ago I started writing down what I was grateful for. When I am done I will have 365 things that I am grateful for in life.  Gratitude can be the most difficult lesson to learn for most people but for me it has proven to be more difficult than I thought.  I started little and felt it wasn’t good enough just to be grateful for now traffic or that I didn’t spill my coffee or that I was able to breath.  I wanted to look deeper but I struggled most days.  I had a few awesome lessons of gratitude that ay have come at a price but all the same they ranked gratitude.   This week I wanted to focus on the people in my life that even though they may not know, I am grateful everyday for them.

Today I was texting with a wonderful friend who is no longer in my daily view at work and has become a brilliant mother.  I miss our jokes and the motivation and support we gave each other everyday.  Today I hope I inspired her to do something she would be amazing at.  She has given me such strength and support in the last four months that no words could describe how amazing she is.  The gratitude I feel for having her in my life has saved me from my own despair many days.  I am sure that Angela will show up again in my pledge of gratitude because our friendship is still growing.

Returning to Real Life

I returned from Cabo just 2 days ago and while I ate my lunch at my desk, feeling groggy, I started thinking of all I would have had accomplished if I was in Cabo right now.  I loved being there and felt at home there, but I was happy to be back in my real life.  I was anxious to start living my life as happy as I was on vacation.   I mean why shouldn’t we always feel like that?  Why do I have to wait for a few days off in paradise to remember that I can be happy? I control every bit of my life and for periods of time I seem to forget that.  I was brought up that I deserve to be happy and if you are not happy, get happy. I have watched my Father work hard all his lie and it’s hard for me to see that he is happy.  My mother has fooled us into thinking she is happy but is she really? I wanted to be happy and let it show through every inch of my glowing face and in every action and every day I wake up. I dread that is not reality, I dread that this is as good as it gets and how will I be able to live this way. Recently learning about the Big Bang Theory creates a renewed hope that my life will someday have a Big Bang where everything just it’s together. Feeling that way months ago makes the worry more tragic. It’s almost like feeling that first love and then it is taken away. Or when you have some savings for a rainy day and it rains car repairs and medical bills instead of rainbows and puppies. I needed to find my motivation, I checked a few things off my list and then decided to test a theory of my own. If I sit down for 30 minutes each day and spill my fears and hopes and all I want in and out of life I know that it will have to materialize soon.  I’m approaching 40 and I can see that clock ticking away each day I go to bed, almost like it is asking me what did you accomplish today.  I feel renewed after vacation and maybe my Big Bang will just be a little spark, but I will be sure to be paying attention when it happens and in the meantime I will create my own big ball of motivation the best way I know how, writing it down and making it happen.

1. Find something to be happy about each day.

2. Make a goal and reach it each day.

3.  Give thanks for what you have. (see featured picture – how can you not be thankful for a sweet loving creature like Leo?)